For your memorial service they quoted: “You’re not a bad person for the ways you tried to kill your sadness.” I think about the sadness a lot. The heaviness of it all. Even with all of your love, your light, it was too much. You are not selfish for wanting to escape the pain. You are not weak. Wherever you are I hope you know that we’ll never forget you. And that you touched the lives of so many people. People you may have never even met.
You deserved so much better and I’m sorry our world was too dim for a light as bright as yours, but I promise we’re doing to make it shine like you would have wanted. We’ll make sure that no one has to go through what you did– at least not alone– and that we’ll raise awareness for people struggling with their mental health. And that survivors will have safer spaces to breathe and exist and heal after trauma. It’s the least we can do after all that you gave to us. We miss you so much. but your love and compassion live on. Even though you’re not here, you remind survivors like me how to keep going in the darkest of times. You remind me that I have so much to live for and getting help is okay. You remind me that I can beat this. You remind me that I deserve to heal.
For any other survivors reading this, please know that you have so much to live for. That you can make it. You are loved and you matter and no one can replace you. Never hesitate to reach out for help. You also deserve to heal. It wasn’t your fault and we believe you. We care about you. The sadness can be overwhelming and healing is difficult, but know that your existence means so much. How you feel is valid and your experiences are yours to define, but don’t forget that we’re here for you and you don’t have to face this alone.
Priya, you were an amazing and beloved soul.Thank you for everything.
All my love,
A fellow survivor